I remember it like it was yesterday. The feeling of frustration and pent-up anger that sat in the pit of my stomach. I felt like I was going to explode. I was a pain in the ass to be around; a fire cracker with a sharp and critical tongue, hissing and whining. I was in a dead-end job that I hated. It literally felt like the life was being sucked out of my soul. Turns out, it was.
I felt like an imposter in a world filled with sameness, people complaining about their job, about other people in their job, about being too busy, about not having enough time, but yet they continued to do the same things day in and day out. It was gruelling and tortuous to be around, yet I was one of them. It didn’t sit well.
The feeling was a familiar one, every job I’d had ended up the same way, but this last one was different. This time I knew what to do. I was already planning my exit strategy, in fact I’d been planning it since day one. Never getting too settled so that I could easily grab my handbag and walk out the door without ever feeling like I had been there and that’s exactly what I did.
There were no tears of ‘we’re going to miss you’ or leaving parties to celebrate, it was more of a sigh of relief that the outspoken master of change was taking her far-fetched ideas and finally taking a hike. Hooray!!! I said goodbye to a few souls I’d connected with before merrily skipping away, ecstatic to have escaped my living hell.
Relief swept throughout the world (well at least throughout my family) as the sun shone again. Sounds like a fairy-tale ending, all that’s needed is a “and they lived happily ever after”. But we all know that’s a load of crap.
I suppose what I mean to say is this; if you find yourself in a dead-end anything you need to do something to change it otherwise you’ll become a whiny-assed so-in-so who nobody actually wants to spend time with.
Yes change is scary and you will fall down and scrap your knees if you’re doing it right, but it doesn’t have to be drastic, it could be as simple as changing your attitude. However, if you are looking to grab fear and look it in the eyeballs, here’s what I did:
- I signed up for business training and business coaching with one of the most well-known specialists in the US (while I was still employed)
- I flew to the US to meet 120 other entrepreneurial women (while I was still employed)
- I resigned two days after I returned from the US
- I started my new business
The most drastic thing I did during this time, was I dug-deep and really got clear on how I wanted to be in the world and how, regardless of what I did, it needed to be in total alignment to my values and beliefs. I recognised fear for what it is and now the two of us walk through the world more gently together. Of course that is, until the next speed bump, then look out!